KURT COBAIN

Because Kurt had a revolutionary attitude and a defiant presence in the face of "authority", I believe it was easy for the Seattle Police Department to treat his death with ridicule and scorn. In the same manner that he was treated while he was alive. The influence he had on the public was real. This was a man who changed the world like it or not. I really hate to quote Billy Corgan here, because I can't stand that dude buuut: 

"The singer then said that what had made "Nirvana so dangerous" was the fact that they attracted listeners from across the cultural spectrum and not just from one scene. He added: "You've got to want to subvert the social order of the high school. That's why Nirvana was so fucking dangerous. They had the jocks listening to them. Kurt Cobain used to talk about how weird it was to be performing, and see the people who used to beat him up cheering along."

http://www.nme.com/news/smashing-pumpkins/65058#kGDKUIxFecytUuTE.99

The attention forced upon him was voracious. Attention that he despised, but his wife did not. This was a man who was very real and open about who he was and what he felt. He was not a fake. When he was unhappy or depressed or felt like dying, or when he was doing drugs, he never tried to hide any of his actions or manipulate what people thought of him. As a role model he was not perfect, and he presented a terrifying figure of freedom and rebellion to what is traditionally considered to be a "normal" and traditional man in "acceptable" society. Kurt was not a sheep. He was not a sheep and he had power (even power that is bestowed unwillingly) and influence. He was not easily controlled. If he were easy to control, he would probably be alive today. 

 

Kurt's drug use was well-known. but how much of it was real, and how much of it was glamorized and WHO was glorifying it? CL idealized and dramatised a "Sid and Nancy" image. She bragged at a gig in 1991 how much she loved heroin and told the audience "me and my husband do it all the time". She did then the Vanity Fair article and bragged about it there resulting in the custody loss of Bean. Shortly after regaining custody, she tell journalist Melissa Rossi dramtically "I've lost my husband to drugs this evening." Why would she do this just after getting back her baby daughter?  There is a clear intent or methodology here. She is staging a scene and keeping the real details murky and conflicted every time she does an interview or talks to someone about their private life. But if you read and listen to how Kurt speaks of his drug use, it's quite different. He calls it a terrible drug. When he was alive he was fed up with the drug rumors and hysteria that followed him around and he spent a lot of time in interviews trying to explain that, yes, he had used heroin and he had used it to deal with a legitimate stomach problem. That it was the only thing that worked, allowed him to eat and ease some of his suffering. There is a documented case where he found a "new pill" in Australia that eased his pain and was excited about it. Then he was disappointed to find out that is was only another name for methadone. He admits many times to being on methadone for stomach pain. And that stomach problem is well documented. He never glamorized it and I believe it TRUE that his drug use did not factor in his life the way his wife and the media (many thanks to his wife) painted him to be and it is unfair to label him "suicidal" and a "junkie" and call it a day. I believe it because I believe HIM before I would ever believe a word from HER mouth. I believe what his close family and friends had to say about him up until his death, because unfortunately the media portrays much of what she wanted them to and did not bother to portray the facts. Pictures of Kurt from 1993 up until his death show him looking normal and clean and he has plenty of people who were close to him at that time backing that up.

 

Articles and videos of Kurt the year prior to his death, show a clean man with a new attitude after the birth of his baby daughter. He interviews in which he talks openly about his drug use and feelings that he has had toward suicide in the PAST. This was a troubled man with a troubled past. He was not perfect and it is easy to point toward the very things he said himself prior to his death to showcase his "intention to commit suicide". When it happened, the police were not surprised. The problem is that most of the people who were close to Kurt at that time were VERY surprised. Everyone in Kurt's immediate circle without default voiced that Kurt was not suicidal, and most had noticed a new resolve and maturity. In fact, beginning in 1992, with the birth of Francis and through 1993 and the months in 1994 leading up to his death, many of the people close to him saw a marked change in his attitude and behavior toward his life and his success. Most of this had to do with the birth of Francis, but there was also finally the diagnoses of a stomach ailment, pinched abdominal nerves due to scoliosis, that was the deep-rooted cause of his physical pain, for which he had sought out the drugs to numb the constant pain and resulting depression from being in chronic pain. Anyone who has ever suffered from chronic, inescapable pain, knows how debilitating and depressing this day in day out exhaustive suffering can be. It's clear that, for some reason, the media has chosen to ignore the evidence that Tom Grant has on tape and in his files. And instead of the popular "Kurt was depressed, and he loved CL, but he couldn't handle the fame and depression and killed himself". But here he was: leaving her, cutting her out if his will, and suddenly he was dead, none of his friends thought he was suicidal, he stated himself he wasn't and everyone just ignores it due to the image painted of him, and that's not really fair. Then there's DeWitt a friend of CL's from way back and they are acting very suspicicously in a way that guilty people would act, not people suffering from loss. Yet it's overlooked. 

 

Notice the use of past tense in this MTV interview when he talks about being suicidal: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIlbaHAzen4

 

Krist Novoselic "smack was only a small part of his life."

 

January 27th, 1994 issue of Rolling Stone, two months before his death, he announced his chronic pain was gone in an interview with David Fricke: "It's just that my stomach isn't bothering me anymore, I'm eating. I ate a huge pizza last night. It was so nice being able to do that. And it just raises my spirits. I have never been happier in my life." Fricke admits that he was expecting the "media version" of Cobain as a "pissy, complaining, freaked-out schizophrenic" and found instead a healthy happy and thoughtful man with no signs of the despair that was so widely reported in the media. (L&D)

 

“It has been a year, almost to the day, since I interviewed Kurt. At the time, he told me he was happier than he had ever been. And frankly, I believed him.” David Fricke, Rolling Stone’s December 14 1994 edition.

 

Pete Shelley vocalist and guitarist, “He seemed really clean when we were on tour…” (Melody Maker April 16 1994 edition).

 

“If Kurt had some kind of hardcore drug problem he must have hid it extremely well because he never did have a problem when I was in the band. . . we’d drink a lot, and Kurt, he didn’t- I mean, you can tell when people are f**ked up. You can totally tell, their attitude changes and they’re almost not even there sometimes. And there just weren’t any of those kinds of problems at all,” Chad Channing.(Eyewitness Nirvana by Borzillo p 44-45).

 

“To my knowledge I never saw him high. The three or four times I had long conversations with Kurt he seemed the most sober person on earth.” (Peter Buck, NME’s September 24 1994 edition).

 

I’ve been asked repeatedly if Kurt was on drugs while I was there. And I’ve been around people who use dope a lot, and on the one hand I know how they behave and on the other I know how deceptive they can be. And my best estimate was that, no, he wasn’t, he was being very productive. That was a period of his life where he was very focused. He was focused on making this record and he didn’t want to let the other guys down. He was committed to the task. He was as sober — and I use that adjective to mean serious — as anybody I’ve ever worked with in the studio.”(Steve Albini, MOJO May 2001). 

 

Was it obvious he took heroin? Lenquette: No. He never looked like a junkie. He took drugs, like everyone in this business, but no, he never appeared to me like a druggie. Youri Lenquette, Loaded June 1994. 

 

He (Kurt) was very open, very honest and seemingly very happy. He also seemed clean. I know it seems strange in the light of Kurt’s Rome overdose and I even asked photographer Mark Leialoha if he thought the same. He agreed that Kurt seemed happier and cleaner than we’d seen him or known him to be.  He did not seem even mildly depressed, let alone suicidal. The whole evening in Atlanta turned out to be one of the best nights of the year; a great show, a relaxed post-gig atmosphere, no bullnuts, just a good vibe.” Steffan Chirazi, commenting on his meeting with Kurt at the Omni Arena, Atlanta, November 1993 in Kerrang’s April 23 1994 edition.

 

In the article, December 11 1993 edition, Chirazi reported that at Nirvana’s November 1993 gig at the Omni Arena in Atlanta he met Kurt backstage: “Frances Bean is wandering the premises with a beaming smile for everyone. Soon Kurt will lovingly, patiently feed her some macaroni cheese dinner for a late night snack, before cuddling her and talking quietly in her ear...."I’m not going to say a d**n word about it being tough; I’m having the best time of my life!” laughs Cobain... 

 

Odd, then, that Charles R Cross (CL crony) reported that in Atlanta, November 1993, Kurt was supposedly at a physical low, lying on the floor backstage, clutching his belly from stomach pain while Courtney castigated John Silva for not overseeing the food prepared by the caterers. Heavier Than Heaven page 297.  

 

…if Kurt was using heroin while he was around me , he hid it well. In Seattle last summer (of 1993) he was alert and happy…(Gavin Edwards, June 1994 edition of Details magazine). 

 

Mark Lanegan, another friend and musician in the band Screaming Trees told Rolling Stone: "I never knew [Kurt] to be suicidal, I just knew he was going through a really tough time."

 

Another friend Charles Peterson ran into Kurt on the street about a week and a half before he died: "He seemed really happy to me, happier than I had seen him in a long time: not that he was usually unhappy, but he was often pretty sickly, and he looked like he was doing a lot better. There didn't seem to be anything wrong as far as I could tell."

 

Dylan Carlson, Cobain’s best friend, told P.I. Tom Grant that Kurt was not suicidal. He also told a reporter for the Seattle Times the same thing. In fact, if he thought his best friend was suicidal, would he have bought him the shotgun? It makes no sense. In Love and Death, Carlson says, "A year earlier, I would have believed it because of the pain, but he wasn't talking like that anymore. He was making all kinds of plans for when he got back from rehab."

 

Leland Cobain, Kurt's grandfather (his grandparents were closer to Kurt than his own parents with whom he had a very troubled relationship with, especially his mother.) maintains "Kurt did not commit suicide, he was murdered. I'm sure of it." In cases of suicide studies show that people intending to commit suicide do not make any long term plans, which is what Kurt did when he planned on going fishing with his Grandfather a couple weeks later. Then his body was found. (Love and Death by Wallace and Halperin p.4)

 

Artist and friend Joe "Mama" Nitzburg told Rolling Stone: "I was ready to see him looking like shit and depressed. He looked so fucking great." during his visit to him at Exodus on April 1st 1994 just days before his death. 

 

Buzzcocks who toured with him Feb 1994 said: Buzzcocks supported Nirvana in Feb 1994. Bassist Tony Barber told the Maker, "I know he was not taking drugs on that tour. He was walking around drinking Evian water and looking clean every time I saw him. He didn't seem to consider himself a star...He seemed like a shy bloke who didn't have many friends. Often when I was talking to him, I felt like saying something like, "Look, if you need a mate just to go for a drink with or anything, I'm here." And then I came home last night and saw it on the news. I couldn't believe it. It's just so sad." (Melody Maker's April 16 1994 edition). 

 

This guy really nails it: "The thing you have to remember about all the talk of Kurt being suicidal is that all the talk only started when Courtney came out after the death and said Rome was a suicide attempt and the media picked up on all her examples of Kurt being suicidal. That's when all these people started saying,'Of course he was suicidal, just listen to his music.' But that's a bunch of crap. Sure he was a moody guy and got depressed quite often. That applies to a hell of a lot of people, including me. But nobody ever talked about Kurt being suicidal before he died, Nobody. Why do you think everybody who knew him was so surprised when Courtney said that Rome was a suicide attempt? I've read all this ignorant bullshit in the media pointing to the fact that Kurt wanted to call In Utero 'I Hate Myself and I Want to Die.' It was a joke, for chrissake. That was his warped sense of humor. He was the most sarcastic guy you'll ever meet. He was not suicidal, at least not when I knew him, and I knew him for the last year of his life." (Peter Cleary, a friend of Kurt’s from Seattle. Who Killed KC page 92). 

 

Quite a different picture than what the media portrays, isn't it. I don't think you can point to a person's art and have that art be an example of a person's intent to commit suicide. There are all these pictures on the web of Kurt posing with a shotgun in his mouth. He sings about suicide, he talks about it, writes about it. Does that in turn mean, he plans on doing it? His art is dark and he talks about the darkness that is inside all of us. Here is a photo of Francis Ford Coppola with a gun to his head (probably during filming apocalypse now), does it mean he is suicidal? 

 

If he is found later with a shotgun blast to the head, NOW can you go back and find all the details in his life up until that point, that might make him that way? What if there were someone left behind with plenty of power and backing manipulating what is said afterward and covering and destroying evidence after the fact. If you use jokes about suicide in your art and it is part of your media "persona", you are a known heroin abuser, then you are later staged to look as if you committed suicide, wouldn't most people just nod and go "yes, he finally managed it" and really not dig much deeper? The reality is, the pure forensic evidence, available for anyone to see, points toward homicide. Suicide was declared, sign, seal deliver and the case was closed. There was NEVER a full "investigation" in any sense of the word.

 

The only reason we have so much evidence contradicting the official verdict is due to P.I. Tom Grant. TG was a detective with the LAPD, who later focused on P.I. work for over 30 years. He has nothing to gain in coming forward with his claims, he only wants justice to be served. He is a clean cut type of honest, law abiding person, and that gives credibility to his testimony. He sells copies of his case files only to fund his work in keeping his website operational and his efforts to keep his investigation alive in hopes of one day being able to reopen the case. He has many pieces of evidence that he has not yet released, in order that the case not be compromised. I find it curious that CL hires him to "find" Kurt and within weeks he is convinced of her guilt. He is the ONLY person close to the case at the time to actually do any type of investigation, yet his findings are ignored.

 

“He wasn’t suicidal, Tom. Kurt wasn’t suicidal!” Rosemary (Carroll) blurted with a deep sigh. This is a woman in the inner circle. Rosemary Carroll was Kurt and Courtney's lawyer and godmother to Francis. She was very close to BOTH of them during this time (TG case files). Rosemary Carroll was actually quite prescient with this belief. Tom Grant was not convinced at first, but due to the continuing doubts and evidence brought up by Rosemary, and the incredibly strange behavior of Kurt's "widow", Tom Grant's opinion began to change. What is incredibly strange is Rosemary's complete retraction of this afterward. (More on this later.) While he was alive and able to dispel rumors, CL cannot say that he was suicidal. After he was found dead however, the media spin immediately began and suddenly at the man who was never considered to be suicidal, became someone who had a death wish the entire time.

 

There has only been one person who publicly and constantly after his death, promoted the idea that Kurt was a suicidal person, and a junkie, and that person is his wife. The person who had everything to gain in the death of her famous husband. If you take away the media hype that has surrounded this case and just look at any crime history of spousal murders, the first thing most people look at is: Who had something to gain by this death? Was there anyone who could have had a motive? In most cases, the spouse would be the first suspect on the list with motive. Especially when they've benefitted the most and suspiction activity such as divorce proceedings are in the works. Why are these facts ignored?

CL has such a trainwreck personality, that it distracts people from noticing a CLEAR methodology and a woman with specific plans. It was not just that she widely spread false information and twisted versions of the truth about Kurt and their relationship, constantly in the media, oftentimes, completely contradicting herself when she cannot remember the lies she spun before. It's the glaringly obvious plan she was putting into action. Several "Suicide Setups" or perhaps even previous attempts at murder, were put into place leading up to his death that pointed the minds and eye of the public, the press and the authorities into believing that Kurt was gearing up to end his life. When he was murdered and the scene was staged, no one bothered to look much deeper. The police went to investigate, what was already in their minds, a suicide. The suicide setups will be covered extensively in the next section, but check out this AMAZING forum post which details the CL vs. KC opposing mindset, and the horrible depth of her modus operadi, the lies, the media whoring, the desperate methodoly of greed, a hunger for control, and the destruction of those in her way: 

http://woundedbtrfly.proboards.com/index.cgiboard=general&action=display&thread=3639&page=2

Includes her "Future Date" poem, a plan of action at a young age--A MUST READ. She even sings about murdering him. She is MUCH smarter than people ever give her credit for, and possesses a depth of evil that is rarely paralleled.

 

Tom Grant Case File Excerpt: "Does Courtney Love really care about privacy? Courtney consistently exploits the death of her husband. During interviews, she often points out that she’s wearing some article of Kurt’s clothing, while telling tall tales about the events surrounding her husband’s death and his “suicidal” personality. She also promotes false visual images by planting inaccurate and horrific details in the minds of already confused fans. Responding to a question about lyric writing during an interview in the December 1994 issue. of Rolling Stone, Courtney comments, “When you’ve had your husband’s blood on your face, how can you write about it? When you walk around in the coat that he shot his head off in, how can you write?” During another interview, Courtney cries hysterically as she talks about the prospect of Frances ever seeing “a picture of him with his f**kin’ head blown off”

 

Courtney has known from the beginning that her husband’s head was not “shot off” and any photos of a man with his head “blown off” are not photos of Kurt Cobain! His body was described by the electrician that found him as "clean and arranged" he thought it was a mannequin at first. His hair looked combed. There was a tiny bit of blood coming out of one ear. So why all the drama? Why all the hype? Why does Courtney insist on promoting the ugliest, most violent image of the man she claims to have loved - an image she knows to be untrue?

 

Because... it makes for good press!

No one has spread more “suicide” hype than Courtney Love.

No one has capitalized on Kurt’s death more than Courtney Love.

No one has exploited Kurt’s daughter more than Courtney Love.

And when it comes to the “privacy” of the family, no one has violated the dignity of Kurt Cobain more than his “professional widow.” 

(Tom Grant Case Files) www.cobaincase.com